I am in a strange kind of funk. It comes with the craving for SOMETHING, and I can't put my finger on it. Do I want to engage in something new and exciting, or something that I have been pawing at for awhile? Do I run away from everything and embark on an entirely new adventure? Or do I continue to slow down, take a look at the little things, and actually enjoy every day?
I felt the same way the last time I returned from Vermont. I feel like I can see everything that I want in my life, but am unsure as to how I go about getting it. I do realize that much of the time, that which you manifest is before you (thank you Racing in the Rain) and things will come as they should and as they will. A difficult concept for a born impatient to master.
Don't mistake me, I have a lot of good going on right now. And I have a fairly certain idea of what TL will say when I tell him this. That I already do too much and need to slow down some more. Usually he is right about that. I want to be able to take the time to sit for an hour over a cup of coffee and not regret that time. To stare out the window. Walk in the woods. Pet the cat. But I tend to be raring to go without ever doing those things I so much enjoy.
So how to slow down? How to engage in something new and work out of this funk but still be mindfull of what is around me? I know one solution, but living in different cities hinders that a bit. A lot. All I really know is that I need SOME KIND of change, be it big or small.
So much rambling. If anyone has made it this far, I owe you a cookie. Two if you even understand what I'm trying to say. I'm not sure I even do.
Labels: that annoying funk